| Thursday, February 9th, 2006 |
| 10:20 am |
as each day passes i feel more dead inside
It makes me sick to think i ever did it to have fun. Once you experiance the rush of the first time it's never the same but yet you still do more to try to get that feeling you got the first time. Meth will suck you in and spit you without you even being aware of it. It gets to the point were you know its bad but your just trying to experiance the moment you got when you first did it that extreme rush but that feeling is dead you can never re create it. And the shitty part is you know all of this but you still go back for more. Maybe not as much as you use to do and not nearly as frequently but you still come back for more. It's such a hard thing to quit, it's been four years since ive started and ive quit and gone back numerous times. All i can do is try my best and hope that oneday i will be rid of this curse. Because in the end thats all it does is suck the life out of you, you dont get a high from it you get a initial feeling from it thats about it and of course the lovely feeling of being extremely hungry and tired but you cant sleep or eat. But by the time you realize it your already hooked, not to the point of being dependant but you keep chasing after that rush. If i ever see the guy who gave me my first line i'd kill him on the spot. Current Music: blood for blood - |
| Saturday, January 14th, 2006 |
| 3:04 pm |
| Your Life Path Number is 1 | 
Your purpose in life is to lead others.
You have great drive and determination. Nothing is going to stand in your way.
You seek out challenges and the spotlight. You'll take all the work - and all the glory.
Status and success are important to you. You demand the best from everyone and everything.
In love, you tend to take a protective role. You enjoy being the provider in relationships.
You expect others to be like you, and as a result, you are often disappointed.
A little selfish and vain, you always put yourself first.
Remember, everyone already knows you're great - you don't need to remind them! |
Current Music: August Burns Red - Too late for roses |
| 3:01 pm |
| Your Porn Star Name Is... | 
Andy Asstronut |
Current Music: dead kennedys - kill the poor |
| 2:57 pm |
| You Are a Caramel Crunch Donut | 
You're a complex creature, and you're guilty of complicating things for fun.
You've been known to sit around pondering the meaning of life...
Or at times, pondering the meaning of your doughnut.
To frost or not to frost? To fill or not to fill? These are your eternal questions. |
Current Music: dead kennedys - lets lynch the landlord |
| Thursday, January 5th, 2006 |
| 11:13 am |
So i've been over my friends house for a few days.. i dyed my hair blue/green. i hate my life Current Mood:  wishing each day was my lastCurrent Music: Nine Inch Nails - Piggy |
| Monday, January 2nd, 2006 |
| 12:51 am |
Fake People
Im gonna start being all for myself like everyone else is. Im also not going to associate with people that arent friends. It sucks that everybody is all for themselfs even some of my so called 'friends'. It also sucks that you have to keep your guard up around people that you think are your friends. In short to all you fake people (dont think i dont know who you are), go fuck yourselfs i have no room in my life for fake people, have the balls to say something to someones face. -Bobby Current Mood: wishing i were deadCurrent Music: Nirvana - Heart Shaped Box |
| Thursday, December 29th, 2005 |
| 12:51 pm |
directions...start with 100% and subtract 5% for each thing you've done on the list..repost the list, and see how bad your friends are ;) Then sign the list on the bottom with your percentages to compare : ) 1. smoked 2. drank 3. done drug 4. have fingered/been fingered 5. given a handjob/gotten a handjob 6. french kissed 7. felt someone up/been felt up 8. given a blowjob/gotten a blowjob 9. licked out someone/been licked out 10. had sex 11. had a threesome 12. given or taken it in the butt 13. made a sex tape 14. done any sexual act on a school campus 15. peed on someone's lawn while drunk 16. had sex/messed around in your room while your parents were home 17. had sex/messed around in a public place or somewhere where there was at least one person present 18. gotten caught having a party 19. used sex toys 20. snuck into someone's room/your own room after being out 20% hehe Current Mood: accomplishedCurrent Music: Aquabats - Super Rad |
| Wednesday, December 28th, 2005 |
| 1:11 pm |
Sex is good =D Current Music: Spazz - The one with the goats got an orgy up his sleeve |
| Monday, December 26th, 2005 |
| 11:21 pm |
ive been thinking
i got invited to another three way. this time with 2 boys i think im gonna take them up on there offer Current Music: Nine Inch Nails - Closer (precursor) |
| Saturday, December 24th, 2005 |
| 12:18 am |
it feels like ive been sick for ever man! Current Mood: fadedCurrent Music: Nirvana - About a Girl |
| Tuesday, December 20th, 2005 |
| 6:05 pm |
| Your Porn Star Name Is... | ![]()
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Current Mood:  calmCurrent Music: Immortal Technique - Industrial Revolution |
| Sunday, December 18th, 2005 |
| 8:35 pm |
BLAH! Current Music: Crass - Bata Motel |
| Thursday, December 15th, 2005 |
| 1:01 pm |
im so sick
I fucking hate having the flu i've been taking cough medicine and Coricidin i hate it cause the DXM in that shit blocks up my ears Current Mood: aggravatedCurrent Music: Subhumans - Word Factory |
| Thursday, December 8th, 2005 |
| 5:24 pm |
Fuck Christmas
I hate this time of the year its so fucking cold and everybodys all jolly and fat. i especially hate the christmas songs they make me want to kill people. Monday marks a month sober from Meth go me!! Current Music: Fear - Fuck Christmas |
| Tuesday, December 6th, 2005 |
| 8:21 am |
Met up with Omar,Chahn,Rhianon and blazed then after omar skated we went to the mall and blazed and then blazed more with gio. The Time release adderall xr's worked after i took 6 of them. god damn time release amphetamine. Current Music: The Clash - London Calling |
| Saturday, November 19th, 2005 |
| 5:16 pm |
Blitz
Met up with Rhiannon took the bus to granada hills got a ride to the blitz show with this rich white cunt from granada. show was fun we boo'd Total chaos, and blitz was awesome live. after the show the cunt from granada hills stranded me and rhiannon in lancaster so we had to wait in a donut shop till 2 30am cause it was so damn cold. Current Mood: accomplishedCurrent Music: Nine Inch Nails - The Becoming |
| Tuesday, November 15th, 2005 |
| 7:50 pm |
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| Monday, November 14th, 2005 |
| 3:01 pm |
tryed salvia last night with omar that shit was a trip i didnt know where i was for a few minutes it was crazy. Current Music: Choking Victim - Death Song |
| Sunday, November 13th, 2005 |
| 3:52 am |
we smoked a half oz of chronic today 7 blunts 3 joints and i lost count of how many bowls Current Music: Jimi Hendrix - All Along The WatchTower |
| Wednesday, November 9th, 2005 |
| 12:17 pm |
Birthday. Went to the church with omar smoked a chronic blunt, then we smoked a kush blunt went to russells house his dad bought a cake that shit was good. then we tryed to smoke hookah and the pricks ID'd us. then we went to carls jr and i proceeded to make a giant rum and coke mix from the rum that amanda gave me. then we went to myras and i got fucking wasted and smoked some blueberry kush and chronic. i ended up puking then omar took me home and i passed out. had a awesome fucken 16th bday. -Bobby Current Mood:  hungoverCurrent Music: Reagon Youth - Its a beutiful day |
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